Last week I was hoping for a low CBC so Alex could skip and week of chemo.. Well that didn't happen. Her counts were good so she started a new cycle which means last week was steroid week. As always the steroids changed our funny, lttle girl into grumpy, whinny Alex and now she understands enough to know that when she is taking the pills crushed in yogurt it is the medicine that makes her grumpy and causes pain in her joints. She knows enough to ask for oxycodone for the pain but doesn't know how to handle the 'roid rage. She bit Michael in one of her fits and I know she would never do this if it weren't for the steroids. She bit Michael and now Michael is crying but he understood she was in her "grumpy" week so he wasn't mad but he was in pain. They were both sad. Michael because he was in pain and Alex because she realized she did something she shouldn't but can't really understand what happens to her brain on the steroids. She was saying sorry and crying with him - it must be so strange to have drugs take over your brain and see yourself do strange things.
It is two years and I am still amazed at how the steroids change her in a matter of 24 hrs. In the picture you see how her eyes get glassy and she isn't herself. In fact, it is two years ago today (January 14th) that we first heard the word cancer and Alex in the same sentence. Two long and hard years but we are coming to the end and we couldn't be happier. We are planning lots of fun trips in 2015, especially a family trip home to Nicaragua which we haven't done in two years because we are afraid of taking her out of the country while in treatment. Three months and we will be basking in the Nica sun for a couple weeks!